this used to be my mothers coat
before that it was my mothers mothers coat
and before that my mothers mothers mothers
my mother wanted me to inherit the coat
she wanted me to wear the coat
walk with the coat
I would tell her it's impossible for me to walk in the coat
the coat is a person non grata
the coat represents suffering torture and murder
people might throw paint at me
or misunderstand who I am
my mother felt the coat was so very old surely it was better to use it
than not to use it
otherwise the animals died for no reason
I didn't want to represent what the coat represented
I am stubborn
so the coat remained
mostly
in the darkness of my mothers closet
my mother died
I took the the coat home with me
my inheritance
I actually wore it a couple of times
no paint was thrown at me
but still
it represents what it represents
inevitability
I put it back
into the darkness